Am I Good Enough?

I think we can agree that “Am I good enough?” is a question we’ve all asked ourselves. Everything we’re starting these days is brand new. Did we learn enough in school to succeed in the real world? How much are we expected to know when we’re brand new?

For me, my biggest issue with the real world is wondering if I’m good enough at what I’m doing. I want more than anything to work in the broadcast industry. I love storytelling and I think 21st century journalism is live storytelling because we now have the technology to do so. We have the ability to be there as real news is unfolding. What more could I want than to be able to tell the public about things that are happening in the moment?

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So This is the Desert, Then

Real talk: I’ve been sitting on this post for quite some time, writing and rewriting it, unable to find just the right words for this muddled grey within me. It’s like those magnetic words that you string together on your refrigerator door. I’m scrounging around this box of scrambled words within me, attempting to arrange them in a way that can adequately communicate the place I’ve recently found myself in.

So let me be straight-up with you: I’m not okay.

But hold up, is that okay to say? Can someone like me who has lived the most pain-free, comfortable life admit something like that without sounding melodramatic, ungrateful and attention-seeking?

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OUR FAVORITE THINGS: Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close

Currently my favorite adulthood novel (this coming from a girl who feels that definitively picking a favorite book or movie is akin to a mother choosing which of her children she loves most), Extremely Loud and Incredibly Close is a touching narrative about the significance of family, the human experience through love and grief and the real impact a person can have on another’s life.

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Mini with a Mini: 5 Tips for Your First Car Purchase

On August 8, I bought a car.  I don’t even know where to begin with this post because it’s about 6 years in the making.

Only a handful of people know this but I actually didn’t have a car consistently until my last semester of college.  My close friends know it’s been a soft spot for me to talk about.  Yes, I know how to drive and I’ve had my license since I was 17.  But being the middle child and the third to go to college left me without a car to call my own. It’s not that my parents didn’t want to buy me a car, they just couldn’t.  Every year we would have the same discussion about how we could move cars around in the family or possibly buy one for me but every year it came down to either paying for school or for a car, and I wasn’t about to stay in my hometown just to be able to drive to a community college.

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All the Crazy Men

Like many of my new and exciting ventures, the very one you are reading began with a call to my best friend, Madeline.

“You could write about the men,” she offered.

“The men?” I questioned.

“Yeah. All of the crazy men youʼve dated.”

“The crazy men?” I once again had to question her.

“Yeah, you know. There was that 40 year-old man or the really interesting one that went away for a while... Or that cheese dip. You could write about the most perfect beer cheese dip in all the land.”

On to the crazy men.

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Fake It 'Til You Become It

“What are the most significant challenges or obstacles you have faced during training?”

My supervisor asked me this question during the seventh and last week of the training process for my very first job. Was it running on no sleep? Brain overload? Being away from my friends and support system?

“A lack of confidence.”

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The Very Worst App

Do you remember what you did four years ago today? No? Good. You probably don’t necessarily need to.

I know I sure don’t, but thanks to Timehop I get to relive every single post. Let’s talk about that. I completed college in five years (Bachelor’s and Master’s) and when I first started posting my thoughts on Facebook and Twitter I am convinced the world’s intellectuals wept. 18 year-old me had absolutely NOTHING of substance to say. I’m not all that convinced that 23 year-old me has much to offer either, but of this I am sure: At 18, I said some dumb shit.

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A Post-Grad Guide to Managing Money

Being alive is expensive.

It’s something you never really think about when you’re growing up because someone else is usually always paying for you. I didn’t even realize it when I was in college, because although I was paying for rent, utilities, groceries, gas, etc., I wasn’t yet aware of all of the hidden expenses that come along with being a person. That changed pretty quickly once I graduated and got my first adult job.

Gone were the days that I could just waltz into the campus clinic and get a free checkup and some $10 cold medicine. Now, even with health insurance, it’s at least a $20 co-pay to have someone look down your throat and be like, “Yep, you’re sick!” and then you have to go set fire to more money to get the medicine. Is your vision anything less than a perfect 20/20? Then have fun paying $70 a month for contacts, unless you want to just gouge your eyes out, which is what I’ve contemplated a few times.

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How to Become A Morning Person

It’s taken a bit of adjustment, but mornings have now become my favorite time of the day. There’s just something innocently hopeful about the quiet light of morning that I’ve come to fully appreciate.

If I can become a morning person, anyone can. Here are 4 tips for changing your mindset from "mornings are of the devil" to "I LOVE MORNINGS!"

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And So We Camped

My friends and I decided to go camping recently. We're all getting ready to start medical school, law school or a year of volunteer work and thought we should have one last trip to just have a good time. None of us are planners but we figured we'd just wing it.  Spontaneity is the spice of life, right?

After running the plan by my dad, we decided it would probably be beneficial to make a list of supplies and food we would need. As we combed through my family's camping supplies I started to wonder, "How on earth are we going to pull this off?" But, that's what makes it exciting, right? 

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The Power of Saying "No"

ll my life I have watched other people use this strange superpower that I just didn't possess.

I remember an instance when I was ten years old and had friends who wanted to go to the mall. But my family was going to lunch. It was such a dilemma that I cried! I literally stood there crying, unable to choose between the two. I couldn't bear the thought of having to tell either my friends or my family “no.” I didn't want to disappoint anyone.

Fast forward to my junior year of college: I was working three jobs, two of which I was commuting an hour for three times a week for minimal pay. I was exhausted.

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Making Dreams Happen

Welcome to being human. You aren’t expected to know every detail about your future. If you had it all figured out, when would you have time for the amazing unknown? Would you welcome love, even if it comes earlier than you expected? Would you feel restless because love is delayed four years? Would you take the job where you could excel quickly, or would you take the job where you’d have to learn new things?

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What's the Point?

I've written three different posts this past week alone, all trying - and failing - to communicate what I've been experiencing this month. Every critique I've had from people has been this: You're rambling. What's the point?

So here's the point: I don't know my point anymore.

"What's your dream job?" a friend asked me on afternoon over half-priced margaritas.

I didn't have an answer for him.

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OUR FAVORITE THINGS: Tame Impala's "Currents"

I’m a simple person with a simple checklist for what makes a great album: a commitment to theme, a track-by-track flow so seamless it’s like one continuous, sonic masterpiece, and lyrical content so #relatable I would consider inking it across my own face if I got sad drunk enough.

Three big checks for Currents, the latest release by Australian psychedelic rock group, Tame Impala.

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